For years, my mom told me I needed to get out of Halifax. She would say “You have so much more to offer, than what this city has to offer you.” And while I understood what she was saying, I really didn’t know if I wanted to leave my friends and family.
But she was right. Living in the same city for your entire life, people know you as one way, and that’s typically who you were when you were younger. People then still associate the high school version of yourself, with your current self. Which for one isn’t fair. I think high school is a really hard time for everyone, so to be 24 and for people to still see me as the girl I was in high school just isn’t fair.
Coming from a small town everyone knows everyone, or at least they think they know you. That’s just not the case.
I’ve said this a few times since I’ve been travelling this time around, but while you’re travelling you get to be 100% yourself. Nobody knows you from back home, they aren’t judging you in anyway, you just get to be who you want to be. For me, the person I wanted to be (and continue to be) while here is myself. 110% myself. Not care about what other people think about me, not not say something because I’m worried about what others may think.
Who am I now?
I’m not saying I wasn’t myself back home, but being away has given me a sense of starting over. Being in New Zealand, and now living in New Zealand, I am without a doubt the happiest I ever have been. I have made so many new friends, that like me for me, and for once I am putting myself first.
I’m still fully discovering who I am, but right now I am on the right track, and I’m my best self, to date.