Let me start by saying that Instagram is hands down my favourite app, and my favourite form of social media. However, it has a tendency to cause me a lot of anxiety.
You can view my Instagram account here.
Up until earlier this year, I followed a lot of fitness, fitspiration, fitness models, and healthy food accounts. A few months ago I made the decision to unfollow all of them because I realized that instead of motivating me they were actually causing me feel bad about myself. I didn’t look like any of those girls that I was following, and as much as I wanted to “look” like them, I didn’t have the motivation to do everything I had to do to achieve that said look.
After unfollowing those accounts I started to feel better about myself because images of “perfect bodies” weren’t always in my face. I put perfect bodies in quotations because every body is perfect, but the media and especially social media, would have us believe that we all need to look a certain way, which just isn’t the case.
Fast forward to today and I am the most comfortable in my body that I have been in a very long time. I am currently travelling, so I don’t have a home base which has some challenges To put it mildly. My meals aren’t 100% healthy, but I am being mindful of what I am putting in my body. I try to find a local grocery store close to whatever hostel I am staying in so that I can try and make as many of my meals as possible (which is also very good for my budget) and that has really helped.
It has also helped that for the past few weeks I have spent a lot of time walking. And walking everywhere, and a lot. And I mean A LOT. My poor Apple Watch has never seen step counts like this before!
Back home I had a car, so even if something was five minutes away I would still drive because that was the conveinient thing to do. Travelling without a car and on a budget is forcing me to walk and I am honestly loving it. I’ve also gone running a few times since being here. But I’ve gone running because I want to, not because I have to. Exercise has never really been my thing, no matter how many cute exercise outfits I bought myself, convinced if I wore them I would somehow start to like exercising so to go running for pleasure is a new and exciting thing for me.
So you may be thinking, “if you unfollowed all of those accounts why is Instagram still causing you anxiety?”
Check back on Friday to find out what currently has me struggling. Not only with Instagram but also a little anxious, a bit stressed and a lot nervous about what my future holds career wise and how I am hoping to take a hobby and maybe make it into job I love.