Do you ever come to a point in your life where you just don’t know what to do next? Everyone around you seems to be excelling in life, and you’re just kind of in a rut?
Well that’s been me for the last year. I was working a job that I really just didn’t love, and my personal life felt pretty stagnant.
My mom kept telling me “you are far too young to be working a job you hate.” Now while I won’t say that I hated my job, I clearly wasn’t happy where I was.
I also found that some of my friendships were starting to drift, as more and more of my friends started to be in relationships or have kids. Priorities change, things change, that’s life.
Back in August, my good friend Colin came home from Ottawa for a visit. It was during Colin’s time at home that I realized just how unhappy I was with my current life situations, because my four days spent with Colin and his friends were the best four days I had had in a very long time.
That Friday, I put in my two weeks notice, 10 days later I was unemployed.
I had this grand plan. I started applying for other jobs in my field, both in my hometown but also in Ottawa, and Toronto. The only problem was, was that I really didn’t know if I loved the field that I was in. I honestly had no idea what I wanted to do.
After a conversation with my mom, it hit me what I needed to do. I needed to take a year to myself. A year to discover who I really am, and what I really want out of life and what I want for my future. So right then and there I applied for a Working Holiday Visa for New Zealand. Four days later, it got accepted. One hour after finding out my application had been approved I had a one way ticket to New Zealand.
Fast forward three months later and I have now been in New Zealand for five days. Already these five days here have brought on so many emotions. This “trip” has so many firsts it’s overwhelming at times.
- I have never not lived at home. With the exception of when I lived in France for three months, however I was a nanny so I lived with a family
- I’ve never done a trip on my own
- I don’t have a job, and I don’t know when I will get one, or when I will even start to look for one
- I am living in hostels until I decide where I want my home base to be
- I have ZERO plans. I haven’t planned anything. I am in Auckland for 10 days, and after that I don’t know what’s next.
I am excited to see what this year will bring, and I hope that you will follow along as I explore the beautiful country of New Zealand in the process of finding myself.